"I see" said the blind man peeing into the wind, "It's all coming back to me now".

As I lay in bed last night I was suddenly overcome by an overwhelming feeling of sadness and nausea. I thought I had been drifting off to sleep but I must have been thinking about Nico. And as I lay there in the dark with a knot in my stomach and a hole in my heart I was hit with the realization that people's lives are a series of patterns, each one repeated unless a conscious effort is made to stop the cycle. I don't know how I didn't see it before, but last night my subconscious had figured it out for me and wanted me to know even if that meant waking me up from my near peaceful slumber.

You see, I had thought that having a new girlfriend - and moving in with her - so quickly was unusual behavior and while it might be for some people it certainly isn't for Nico because he had recently gotten out of a serious relationship (citing irreconcilable differences, I do believe) when he met and moved in with me. Curious!

While my subconscious was clever enough to find the pattern (don't ask me why I never noticed this myself) its too bad it wasn't clever enough to find the reason behind the pattern.

I guess that might be a bit much to ask, eh? ;)